The Woman in Me!

With so much disaster happening all around the world, I now strongly feel, yes 2012 it is. As though the natural calamity in Japan, where you have absolutely no control over and all you can do is put your hands together and plead Him to end this turmoil, is not enough. And as though we want to show Him, we are capable of a catastrophe ourselves, we created the Libya.

I was listening to the radio on my way to work and there was this interview with a brigadier who was a member of the crew that was bombing Libya. And when asked about it, he said
"We were able to cause the maximum damage. We were successful".
The very vision of the destruction created tumult in me. I started convincing myself, may be it is necessary, may be killing for a cause is okay.

however I couldn't take the words "maximum damage.. successful". I couldn't even chew it, let alone digest it.

I was so surprised at my own reaction to the whole situation. I felt matured, I can see the birth of a woman in me. Had this happened one or two years ago, I would have felt that this was the right thing to do. You should not tolerate any atrocities happen to you and you should be a fighter and revolt back. This is how the world works and that silence is viewed as weakness.

I know motherhood made me more vulnerable, sensitive and emotional as a person.

I started thinking about the ideologies of Gandhi and Bhagat Singh. I admire Bhagat Singh a lot. If we owe anyone for our freedom then it's for the likes of Bhagat Singh who sacrificed their life for all of us to enjoy it. I used to feel, when compared to the sacrifice made by Bhagat Singh, Gandhi hadn't done enough to enjoy all the glory he is in now.

But now with growing age and maturity, I understand Gandhi's ideology. He was so strategic and thoughtful that comes only with age and that is so contrast with young rebellious blood.
Now I feel may be young people are not the right persons to lead a nation. With your blood boiling and with your thoughts so rebellious your actions might not be as wise.

However the words "maximum damage.. successful" still puzzle me.
I said to Vijay, how can killing people is looked at as success? As usual his wise thoughts again put me into thinking.

He talked about Arjuna in Gita. Arjuna had to kill his own Guru for the cause of good.
I again felt that good cause is again perception. Something you view as a good might not be for others. Nations and borders are created by you. Can you justify your act of killing, in front of God?

I think I should read Bhagavat Gita to get some answers. I have been wanting to read it for a long time now.